Might be anxiety and seasonal stress. Try to find alternatives on a healthier spectrum to nib on
I guess it's also Corona related, the gym is closed, working home and it's pretty cool and dark out there (Germany). I'm so jealous for people living in warm countries. :(
Ok, you do whatever "modern culture" tells you, you seem to have misunderstood what I said anyway. There seems to be some cognitive dissonance going on.