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I find her Kanye obsession kind of disturbing. She stated very clearly in a recent interview he's the only current artist she respects and that we should just look past the fact that he invited Marilyn Mason (who had been accused of rape, abuse and sexual sadism) and Da Baby (who expressed some disgusting homophobia, which she rightfully rebuked) to an album release stunt that I suppose was a critique of "cancel culture."  I also can't forget, Kanye's own publicist also threatened election officials in a attempt to overturn the election in favor of Trump and that he himself suggested running for president, mostly to pull a handful of Black votes from Biden to give the Whitehouse back to Trump. This isn't even close to OK and it's hardly differing political opinions when our Democracy is at stake here. 
And don't get me started on Mayweather, who has a long history of disgusting homophobia and extreme bigotry (even just a couple of months ago he is on camera saying he wouldn't take a photograph with a male fan with painted nails). This isn't someone you pose with in an instagram photo when he embodies so many of the hateful things many of her fans have struggled with over the years.
Madonna always took her narcissism and used it as fuel for extraordinary endurance and, usually, for the right political causes. Without infallible confidence, she probably would've had a breakdown ages ago.  I think she recognizes a fellow narcissist in Kanye and it draws her to him. However, his Personality Disorder and co-morbid Bipolar diagnosis are weapons of chaos when he's in crisis. His money and fame allow him to do whatever he wants whenever he wants no matter how destructive and without consequence. Her recent "Artists are here to disturb the peace," mantra, which she repeats ad-nauseam, seems a manifestation of that particular ethos and less an embrace of non-conformity and "good trouble." It's about giving herself permission to let her ego run amok, to exist in a world of her own making and privilege where there are no rules and no consequences, much like Kanye. That said, her current "peace disturbing" seems limited to mildly annoying her fans by wearing grills, using weird filters, and violently humping various inanimate objects. 
The pandemic was likely the first time in her adult life where Madonna was controlled by outside forces and I wonder how much that has affected her current mindset. She's always rebelled at the word, "No." Right or wrong, she really couldn't psychologically handle the restrictions placed on her, which is likely why she flew her family and sycophants from around the globe to party maskless while the pandemic raged. Tested or no, it wasn't really a justifiable trip.
Long winded rant that I needed to get off my chest. Something odd is going on here, and I'm legitimately concerned about her well-being and safety, especially after saying in that final interview that she wants to work herself to death and Lourdes saying he never sleeps. The surgeries, the falls, the dozens of empty pill bottles... I don't want to look back in a couple of years and wonder why no one stepped in when all the "disturbing the peace" was in actuality a cry for help.