Why do I think American Life is the Anti - Madonna album?
While I've grown to love the record I think it's a really hard album to digest. The music is spiky uninviting and aggressive. In your face. There's something quite punk about it. It lacks a certain musicality the same way punk music did. It's her least melodic record for sure but as well as this the album lacks harmonies which I think is intentional as maybe Madonna felt she had none in her life at the time. Go listen again you'll be shocked how little there is even on choruses. There's a couple in the acoustic bit of the title track and Intervention.
Instead of using traditional harmonies on most tracks, they opt for a quite aggressive double track lead vocal scenario. When you think of harmonising to any song on the album it's hard to think of any natural fits. Even on the acoustic ballad X-Static process. The few selected harmonies are presented almost like other thoughts she is having, happening at the same time as the main melody, rather than an actual harmony. They aren't synced and in one verse all the harmonies even waltz off into different lyrics, making it sound confused or distracted "i'm not myself myself right now"
I say it's the anti Madonna album because here was always a warmth to Madonnas music where it felt like there was a more positive resolution to the songs or record. American Life is so icy and cold and that's seemingly on purpose. It's a pure midlife crisis album and a major turning point in Madonnas career. She's miserable and in some cases moaning on pretty much every track. There's a sadness and bitterness about everything and the listen leaves you a bit depressed rather than uplifted or emboldened. I have always suspected that much of the album was driven by Madonna potentially miscarrying a child around that time, or being unsuccessful at conceiving again ? I don't know if this is true but she clearly wanted more children after Rocco, and David came very quickly afterwards,
There's lots of doom mongering negative language. Nothing Fails, Die / I'm So Stupid / Intervention / Nobody Knows Me / Easy Ride. The miserablism of the title track and Hollywood. There is so much confusion. There was a time I was happy in my life, Do You Think I'm Satisfied, I forgot that I was special too,
There are so many questions in the lyrics or lines that hedge bets and leave room for failure or the inevitability of pain or loss or failure
Should I lose some weight?
Do you think I'm satisfied?
This type of modern life, is it for me?
This time it's got to be good
How could it hurt you when it looks so good?
Oh, mother why aren't you here with me?
I guess I'll die another day?
Jesus Christ will you look at me?
Don't know who I am , Don't really know if I should give a damn
I'm gonna wake up, yes and no
I want to let go of all disappointment, that's waiting for me
The use of the word Don't & No. No-body, no-thing, lost and life / living happens often enough. Fear makes a few appearances or is at least a theme.
"Dont want my dreams adding up to nothing"
"I lost my memory in hollywood"
"And I know, I know, There is nothing to fear".. (the second "I know" almost trying to convince herself)
"I lost my reputation bad and good"
"I have lost my illusions"
"When I get lost in space"
"Nothing fails, no more fears"
I've climbed the tree of life"
"Nobody knows me"
I'm just living out the American Dream, and I just realized that nothing is what it seems
"I used to live in a funny dream"
"I've had so many lives"
"I've got to calm him down now, I've got to save his life"
"cause I used to live in a tiny bubble"
Now I'm gonna try to improve my life"
"No ones telling you how to live your life"
"say hello to your life now you are living"
"Nobody else could ever take the place of you"
"What I want is to live forever"
Mother & Father is talking about the loss of her mother AND as a result of her mother dying she lost her father too. Intervention is about losing herself and sense of identity. Even the love song Nothing Fails is a double negative In its wording. "Makes me wanna pray you'll always be here" gives a sense of foreboding...Something doomed perhaps. The album is her most self reflective and self critical.
The self reference with the use of the word "I" is phenomenal. Just look at the lyrics. American Life. Nobody Knows Me and Die Another Day pretty much start every line with I. The amount of songs that begin with I. If not the verse the chorus.
Verse:
I Tried To Be A Boy
I Lost My Memory In Hollywood
I'm So Stupid
I've Had So Many Lives
I'm In Love With You You Silly Thing
I Got To Save My Baby
I'm Not Myself When You're Around
I'm Gonna Wake Up Yes And No
I Want The Good Life
Chorus
I go round and round just like a circle
I got to give it up find someone to love me
I guess I'll Die Another Day
and I know that Love will keep us together
I got you under my skin
and if it's not "I" it's "Me"
Lots of use of the word "don't" too, another negative phrase.
I don't want, no lies I don't watch TV
Dont want my dreams adding up to nothing
Don't know who I'm supposed to be
Don't really know if I should give a damn
Push the button, Don't push the button
Don't try to tempt me
I dont want an easy ride
When you're around I don't know who I am
I'm not myself and I don't know how
Even the tracks that didn't make the album offer the same similarities as the above tracks
It's So Cool:
Do you realize you pay the price?
Do you know the cost of all your vice?
Do you really know God's intention?
Do you ever ask what it's all for?
Isn't this the best thing you ever had?
Set The Right:
Don't push me to the left
Don't push me to the right
I have learned Nothing is for free
gather top your dreams just to stay alive
Many examples of duality of things. There's also lots of questioning, both sides of the argument, second guessing and evaluation. Analyse this indeed.
Push the button, don't push the button.
I tried to be a boy, I tried to be a girl
I tried to be a mess, I tried to be the best
I'm not a Christian, I'm not A Jew
I've had a million visions bad & good
I'm bored with the concept of wright & wrong
How can it hurt you when it looks so good
adding up to nothing
There are too many options, there is no one solution
Sometimes it's such a pleasure, sometimes I want to tear it all down
I always wish that I could find someone as talented as you, but in the process I forget that I was special too
nobody else could ever take the place of you, nobody else could ever hurt me like you did
I'm gonna wake up, yes and no
I want the good life, but I don't want an easy ride
Some of these examples hold better than others but my point is it illustrates a picture of negativity. Which Madonna has never been about. She and her music have represented positivity, control, ambition, empowerment, life affirming and inspirational messages. This whole record is none of that. If anything is looking at the dark underbelly or drivers of the positive things in her life through the lens of fear and questions of self worth.
It's also the first time she ever refers to herself as a victim in Mother & Father
"I made a vow that I would never need
Another person ever
Turned my heart into a cage
A victim of a kind of rage"
This is unprecedented and a real insight in the mindset of her as a child and beyond. Madonna would never wish to be seen or to present herself as a victim. In fact for all the comparisons to Marilyn Monroe Madonna was once quoted as saying.
"Marilyn Monroe was a victim; I’m not" or something to that effect.
In summary: If the "absolutely no regrets" //door slam// was the sound of Madonna 1.0 slamming the door (or coffin lid) and walking away from the fearless, bolshy incarnation of herself and first decade of her career (83-93), before her introspective decade (94-04), then American Life is the sound of Madonna exhuming the coffin, looking at the corpse of her former self and having a good think about why she did what she did, where it's bought her, why the fuck she did what she did, and what's next.
American Life is Madonna falling out of the centre of the whirlwind of her career, sitting in the quiet eye of the storm and looking at the madness she has created around her. She's going to war with herself, maybe she's tired of her self. (Army fatigues anyone?). Deconstructing, analysing herself, her past, her present and what she wants her future to look like, and she sits mustering the strength to throw herself back into the whirlwind again, but first deciding if she even really wants to...but she will, and she does because she doesn't want an Easy Ride.
Interestingly Easy Ride is the song that closes the album after she decided she'll Die Another Day. A joyless, droll, glitchy funeral march of a song. The sound of a never ending round and round of Madonna's Catholic guilt driving her to keep lashing her own back with a cat'o'nine tails. The female embodiment of Flagellant monk forming mortification of the flesh by whipping their own skin with instruments of penance. Fascinating really. I think she left a lot of herself behind before she jumped back into that Maelstom and for me it was the second death of the Madonna we knew and loved, submitted to record before the commercial backlash. An act of self sabotage?
It's a record that is so opposed to the Madonna brand musically and thematically. And in true ying and yang fashion it's the first album we saw her brand being exploited with the singles all being heavily corporately sponsored. Mini Cooper / Gap / Estee Lauder.
So yeah..that's why, (for me anyway)...it's the anti Madonna album.
Guys we are never going to get an ITG release - we have more chances of getting BA tour Paris footage - she doesn’t even like this era so the best we will ever get is a true blue expanded sometime next decade when she’s finished pissing us off with thee pointless vinyl exclusives 😢😥🤩
Love Won't Wait - already released (Gary) - so unlikely to include that,
Let Down Your Guard, Freedom and Your Honety- already released.
So, if it isn't the shep demos - it could be a bunch of tracks we don't yet know about!
Everything I posted is what is included in WMG’s Global Catalog internal list of releases for RSD Black Friday, word for word.
nothing I shared was “written by a fan”
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Wasn't going to share all this info till later this month, but work sucks, so sharing now
This is the entry that is included on WMG's list of releases for Record Store Day Black Friday:
Susan Thomas - Naptime (codename)
Eight tracks celebrating the 30th Anniversary of this album. Includes six previously unreleased demos and mixes.
Format: 1LP 180g Black Vinyl
UPC: 603497820665
Announcement/ List Reveal : October 1 2024
Release Date: November 29 2024
Take what you want from that, and decipher it however you want.
Let's be honest, it doesnt make much sense.
If another artist uses the codename Susan Thomas, then this will all be pointless
but otherwise
Susan Thomas has a release coming up for RSD Black Friday.